"... here I am
listening at last
on the brink
of something big
ready to embrace
the future self
that I dreamed I’d be ..."
I wrote this poem in springtime; a season where many of us might feel drawn to reviewing life choices, inspired by nature to wake up and take note. In busy lives, it’s all too easy to be sucked into what can feel like an endless cycle of work, eat, sleep, with perhaps a little time for yourself if you’re lucky. That’s why pressing the pause button, no matter how short-lived, is important. If we didn’t stop once in a while to admire a view, watch children play, listen to a favourite song – whatever it is that works for you – our days would simply be all about doing and never about just being.
I’ve lost count of how many times I might have missed something profound, amazing or simply beautiful, if I hadn’t take the time to notice. It might be fleeting, such as witnessing an act of kindness in the street, or a stunning sunset you would’ve missed if you hadn’t looked up at just that moment. This happens a lot to me whilst out in my camper van and a reason why I’m always reluctant to draw the blinds. Check out the photograph below to see the sunrise we almost missed in the highlands of Scotland earlier this year.
There are lots of things that offer up opportunities to review our lives if we are alive to the possibilities. I know I’m not always receptive because I’m too busy thinking about the next thing on my to-do-list. Half the time, I am on auto-pilot, doing stuff without really thinking. I’m not present in the moment and I need a nudge to bring me back to now.
We don’t always have a choice about what brings us back to the present do we? Lives can be turned upside down in an instant due to serious illness, redundancy or a marriage breakup. Other times we do choose and we can prepare … such as a house move, a new job or retirement.
But all these things are big things and it isn’t necessarily the big things that bring the deepest insights. I find it’s the small often ignored things that suddenly come into focus and help me shift my perspective.
It was an online session with a group of women that prompted this poem. In my final months before retirement, it was an opportunity to think about how I could choose to be, free from work commitments that took so much of my time and energy. I knew all too well that I’d missed out on so many opportunities over the years, choosing instead to preserve my energy for work. It was a strategy that helped, but came at a personal cost.
Of course, now I’m retired there are lots of other things filling my days and I’m fast becoming one of those people who declares, “I don’t know how I ever found the time to work!”. But what I am purposefully doing is making time in my days to pause, no matter how briefly.
This blog is an invitation to you to take time out to read a poem; let it take you to places, both within yourself, and beyond to the wider world. That’s all – just try it! Welcome to to the present moment. What invitations call to you?
fi wynne writes 